STRUGGLE... that is what my marriage was; a daily struggle.
I wanted to be alive; to live each day with joy, meaning and activity. He wanted to stay in a dream world, a world that was not real, a subconscious state, not reality. The world I wanted consisted of adventure and fun and living each day to its fullest. His day consisted of creating computers and sitting and dreaming.
He even said to me when we were at the end. He said, 'My perception is my reality'. No, your perception is where you choose to stay and delude yourself, but it doesn't change reality. I choose to live in reality and love life.
We struggled against each other each day for 20 years; me, to live a full, rich life; him, to live in a dream state.